Complexity of Literature, Life and Education in Home Country
Literature is huge part of life that people in my country neglect enough. From early beginning, I used to give my important time to writing field. Few friends praised me. Some friends used to gossip me negatively. Some relatives ignore me. Some media did not care my work that they highlighted others making me lower. Some my relative’s media reported negatively to my teaching job. It is very difficult to me to survive to get good opportunity for me. My relatives used to make me low and highlight other weak people. So I want to rise myself not consulting them. It is very complex to secure my job from my own people. To be writer is challenging job. My near people want to see my breakable life that they highlight other who is weaker than me. So I ignore them and live the life of tears and struggle. My own people did support to those who joked, abused and unsecured me. I don’t know outside environment. I used to live only in my room that is my core mate. I did not go to observe and evaluate others. So I live in my room often with tears to write. Very often I used my time to write innocently. I often used to write my feelings of pain when it was not endurable. My own and some other people doubted me badly and negatively. My own relatives have ego to view my job. They are like sellers to report a job. So I had done regular struggle to revolt against them. Such pain about domination to me by owns people are very much unbearable. I was thrown by Nepalese University to study my PhD and I was no entry to Job too in government sector.
In that condition My first three poems were published by Russia (book named Horror without Boarder Vol. 2), then my few poems were published in England. Again my poems were published by African Countries Kenya, Nigeria, South Africa and Tunisia. Thanks to International sectors. After that my poems were published many where. India has published much. Later Shri Sarbashis Kumar Paul invited to respect international writers. It is my inner thanks to Organizer Shri Sarbashis Kumar Paul, Chairman Shri Kanaia Lal Agarwala of Islampur Municipality, Uttar Dinajpur West Bengal who had invited poets from the world including me in 3rd International Seminar on Peace at 18th September 2022 and in 5th International Literary Festival in April 29/30 – 2023.
That place is near to east Nepal. So I decided to go there. I went twice. The programme was praiseworthy. Shri Sarbashis Kumar Paul Sir had given priority to all writers equally to award by literary respect. He welcomed authors by creating photos in post around the Hall. It was huge respect to invite writers. It was his huge tribute to writers of world that his programme had associated the fellow poets from Nepal, Bangladesh, Dubai, Malaysia and India. So infinite thanks go to those who respect writers of world. Writers are not made with common mind. People think writers as fallen creatures. Writers’ art never falls in ditch. Political conspiracy of people may fall anywhere but writers’ art never fall even in grave or death bed. Thanks a lot to those media, magazines, anthologies and fellow author friends who make us to stand by art in our identity. Thanks to international media and publishers too.
© Til Kumari Sharma (Bashyal )
Parbat, Paiyun 7- Hile
Nepal
